Why do you hate me.

leeedialove:

99 percentile, ehh?

I’m fucking lonely. I miss my mom, dad, brother grandma, girlfriend, and friends. Although not necessarily in that order. I am currently listening to Taylor Swift. I love her, she is keeping me company. I’m tired to studying, I want a break, I can’t wait for that one day spring break that I will have. I’m very grateful for Rex though, he and my practice test are the only companions that I have right now.

Find that one girl that makes you smile and hold onto her forever.

I’ve got the first part down, it’s the latter I’m working with. I feel like a new day has dawned in our relationship and hope that I can make her smile the way she used to =). Patty <3 Doug forever.

leeedialove:

i’ve finally gotten to the age where i’ve discovered that Santa was only a made up fairytale, passed down through generations, that our parents have managed to keep up & keep hidden from us. just kidding.

but i have gotten to the age where i’ve discovered that no material thing will ever truly satisfy my hopes for full happiness. sure it’s nice to get things for Christmas, but as people have been asking me what it is i am writing to Santa for this year, i’ve realized that what i really truly want is not something that Santa’s little elves can put together in their little work shop.

i feel like i have everything that i could possibly dream of, in a realistic, material sense, of course. what i want is nothing that can be given to me physically so that i may hold it in my hand, but as cheesy as it sounds, deep within each & every one of us, in our hearts. i want to be able to spend as much time as i can with the people in my life that i love beyond words. i want to be able to comfort these people & to be able to give myself to these people selflessly. i want to take away all their hurt & never inflict any sort of physical or emotional harm upon these people. i want to be able to provide all the love that i can muster so that they may never have to question themselves. i want these people to never have a day of sadness && see that there is happiness all around us, you just have to look in the right places.

sooooooo, Merry Christmas.
let’s enjoy the last few days of 2009 
&& celebrate the coming of 2010,
a new year, waiting to be filled with memories.

So ummmm why did you ask for raindeer boots then? And umm Rex is something that you can hold in your arms and love, so if you don’t want him I can gladly return him for you? But I understand what you mean, I don’t think that I really want anything that anyone can give me. I want to spend more time with my family and friends and I want to learn chinese, do well on my DATs, I don’t think anyone can give that to me. I want Rex to grow up to be a disciplined obedient dog so that I can show him affection. I want my girlfriend to continue to look at me with that twinkle in her eyes, I miss holding her and kissing her and rubbing my nose against her. I miss her grunting at me because I’ve displeased her, JK I hate it when she does that. I miss telling my girlfriend goodnight and I love you and hearing her struggle to say it back because she’s already fallen asleep before I can get my arm around her. LOVE YOU LEEEDIA. Merry Christmas. I can’t wait to see the look in her eyes as Rex runs up to you. I hope you miss me as much as I miss you. The best thing that you can give me for Christmas, is just to let me scoop you up in my arms and kiss you. Oh yeah, Rex is spooning Maple, they’re both on the hot water bottle that I set up for him. Goodnight, Merry Christmas, and Happy new year I love you.